Never Last

So, I'm gonna tell you a story about a girl who used to be my bestf. I think she's still my bestf, but I don't know what is she thinking about. Actually, I don't hate her. But I don't love her too. She got a problem with my bestfs too. And that makes our relationship isn't good these days. I've wasted my life pretending so they can be together again. But, I know that forgiving and changing people aren't that easy to do. But this is a must. And now, isn't it wrong to hope that they'd make a couple again? And we're gonna hang out together again? I'm not sure at all ._.

The 9th day of Augus 2011. 2:49 and still haven't sleep...

Can't sleep, lucky me, I'm not goin to school today. I'm listening 'Untouchable' by Taylor Swift, and hell yeah, I remember about my... well, whatcha call it? Oh yea, crush...

Okay, first, I'll tell you what is my problem:
I got a dilemma, darls. I got a boy named Joe. I mean, Joe is my bestfriend. I forgot from when, why and where we met. And, if I must tell you, I fell in love with this guy. Yeah. Joe. Nah, Joe has a lil' bro, named Tim. We're all close. Me, Joe, Tim. Let's say bestfriend. We're hang out together. Sometimes with Tim's girl. Sometimes with Joe's classmate named Daniel (yeah, he's a boy. Joe doesn't get attract at a girl much. I mean, it doesn't mean that he's a gay. But he likes friendship better than love for now.) We're all pretty close. If there are some new movies, they'd call me and get me to the nearest cinema. November, Tim was broke up with his girl. He said, "I don't love her anymore. I broke her up." And it was all real. Her girl said everything to me. But unlucky, it did't make Tim love her again. So, yeah, they were single each other. The girl was so sensitive. She cried all night at twitter. And Tim, he had fun all night. But yeah, I'm still he's bestf and his ex-girl bestf.
Then, things changed. At the end of November, I started to like Joe. I wasn't tell anyone. I was trying to act usually. But at December, Tim and me, walked together at a Mall. I wasn't think anything. I was thinking that Joe and Daniel (that was on 3rd grade) are busy for National Exam. But then, Tim, said it. "Mind if I'm yours?" and I can't say anything. I was just... "hah?" he said it again, once. "Be yours. Your boyfriend." I didn't know what to do. And then he nod his head. I kinda like him. But just about my lil' brother. Cause he's younger than me. "Yeah." I said that. And in my head, there was a voice like this, "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!!" but it was too late. I accepted him to be mine. And yea, we got it all. I mean, I was Tim's. I was quite happy, but I was... yeah like, can't stand when I looked him with other girls. Later, I knew that he got his first girlfriend. Tim and Joe are so close each other. They tell their own brother everything. Joe's girl was Vero. And Vero was my senior at Elementary School. We're quite close. We're even bestfriend now. And theeeeen, Vero asked me to go to a mall. And we were walking together there. And, Vero said, "surprise..." there was Tim. And Joe in his side. I was smile. Joe took Vero's hand. Tim smiled to me. "I don't think that you're going to go here with Vero." I nod my head, "me neither."
But then I can't stand of looking Vero and Joe. So??? I was honest to my girl bestfriend. And she was just, "oh my God..." and I was cry. (Ok, I know this is funny. But... I was really cry.) then she said things I don't understand. "So, did you date Tim just for get more attention for Joe? You don't really love Tim, right?! I want you to break him up as fast as you can." 5 days after I thought more about this. Yeah, I must to break him up. When we broke up, he didn't text me, call me, or just say hi to me. And
went to different school make us really-really lost contact.
But then, Daniel made a contact with me. I told everything to him. And he said, "Tim was just shocked. He thought everything was alright. But then you broke him up." And then I didn't think bout it again.
About this February, I regret. And I know I was wrong. I've sacrified all for bring him back. And I can not. Til what? Til he brought himself back to me. But hey, Joe said that he loved me 3 days ago..... so what am I gonna do? Should I pick Joe? Should I pick Tim?

*suddenly, 'My Dilemma' by Selena Gomez & the Scene, played...*

Karaoke at BIP :))

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Lazy Sunday, 20th March 2011

I wanted to write all about my stories, but my NetBook is might be at risk.
Gotta go.

Bottom Of The Ocean - Miley Cyrus

It's been in the past for a while
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy
Still miss you, baby
It was real
It was right
But it burned too hot to survive
All that's left is,
All these ashes

Where does the love go
I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be losing you forever,
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become like everything
I'll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

In a dream, you appear
For a while, you were here
So I keep sleeping,
Just to keep you with me
I'll draw a map,
Connect the dots
With all the memories that I got
What I'm missing,
I'll keep reliving

Where does the love go,
I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be losing you forever,
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become like everything
I'll never find again,
At the bottom of the ocean

(Voice)
This is it
Let go
Breathe

You don't have to love me for me
To baby ever understand
Just know I love the time we both had
And I don't ever want to see you sad
Be happy
And I don't wanna hold you
If you don't wanna tell me you love me babe
Just know I'm gonna have to walk away
I'll be big enough for both of us to say
Be happy

(Voice)
Be happy

Apologize and "Curhat"

Halo maafkan aku yang udah lama ga nge-blog. Laptop-ku rusak dan lagi di service TT_TT oke, sekarang kita langsung ke pokok utama aja (?).

Bulan ini aku lagi cengeng-cengengnya. Tapi udah dari Oktober sih. Tapi da mana ada orang mau nangis 2 bulan bahkan bisa-bisa lebih cuy? Iya kan?

Karena apakah aku kaya gini? Yaaaa, pokonya karena kecengan aku tuh. Salahin aja dia :))


Sekarang masih berhubungan dengan baik sama dia, tapi udah gak bakal ketemu lagi. Hhh...


Format lah diriku TT~TT


Haha apa sih aku? Udah ya segini dulu. BYE!