Can't sleep, lucky me, I'm not goin to school today. I'm listening 'Untouchable' by Taylor Swift, and hell yeah, I remember about my... well, whatcha call it? Oh yea, crush...
Okay, first, I'll tell you what is my problem:
I got a dilemma, darls. I got a boy named Joe. I mean, Joe is my bestfriend. I forgot from when, why and where we met. And, if I must tell you, I fell in love with this guy. Yeah. Joe. Nah, Joe has a lil' bro, named Tim. We're all close. Me, Joe, Tim. Let's say bestfriend. We're hang out together. Sometimes with Tim's girl. Sometimes with Joe's classmate named Daniel (yeah, he's a boy. Joe doesn't get attract at a girl much. I mean, it doesn't mean that he's a gay. But he likes friendship better than love for now.) We're all pretty close. If there are some new movies, they'd call me and get me to the nearest cinema. November, Tim was broke up with his girl. He said, "I don't love her anymore. I broke her up." And it was all real. Her girl said everything to me. But unlucky, it did't make Tim love her again. So, yeah, they were single each other. The girl was so sensitive. She cried all night at twitter. And Tim, he had fun all night. But yeah, I'm still he's bestf and his ex-girl bestf.
Then, things changed. At the end of November, I started to like Joe. I wasn't tell anyone. I was trying to act usually. But at December, Tim and me, walked together at a Mall. I wasn't think anything. I was thinking that Joe and Daniel (that was on 3rd grade) are busy for National Exam. But then, Tim, said it. "Mind if I'm yours?" and I can't say anything. I was just... "hah?" he said it again, once. "Be yours. Your boyfriend." I didn't know what to do. And then he nod his head. I kinda like him. But just about my lil' brother. Cause he's younger than me. "Yeah." I said that. And in my head, there was a voice like this, "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!!" but it was too late. I accepted him to be mine. And yea, we got it all. I mean, I was Tim's. I was quite happy, but I was... yeah like, can't stand when I looked him with other girls. Later, I knew that he got his first girlfriend. Tim and Joe are so close each other. They tell their own brother everything. Joe's girl was Vero. And Vero was my senior at Elementary School. We're quite close. We're even bestfriend now. And theeeeen, Vero asked me to go to a mall. And we were walking together there. And, Vero said, "surprise..." there was Tim. And Joe in his side. I was smile. Joe took Vero's hand. Tim smiled to me. "I don't think that you're going to go here with Vero." I nod my head, "me neither."
But then I can't stand of looking Vero and Joe. So??? I was honest to my girl bestfriend. And she was just, "oh my God..." and I was cry. (Ok, I know this is funny. But... I was really cry.) then she said things I don't understand. "So, did you date Tim just for get more attention for Joe? You don't really love Tim, right?! I want you to break him up as fast as you can." 5 days after I thought more about this. Yeah, I must to break him up. When we broke up, he didn't text me, call me, or just say hi to me. And
went to different school make us really-really lost contact.
But then, Daniel made a contact with me. I told everything to him. And he said, "Tim was just shocked. He thought everything was alright. But then you broke him up." And then I didn't think bout it again.
About this February, I regret. And I know I was wrong. I've sacrified all for bring him back. And I can not. Til what? Til he brought himself back to me. But hey, Joe said that he loved me 3 days ago..... so what am I gonna do? Should I pick Joe? Should I pick Tim?
*suddenly, 'My Dilemma' by Selena Gomez & the Scene, played...*
